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a long overdue life updates!

Hello earthlings. By the time this is uploaded, it would have been 3 months since I started college. So many things happened. There are a lot of things I haven't share with anyone, and there are a lot I want to share.
what went on?

  • Started school 3 months ago. I met new people, have new friends and although college life is hella hard, with these people I just met, and the support of my parents, family and best friends, I might be able to go through anything insya Allah.

  • Mid-term exam. The time when I realized how I had been wasting my time with sleeping and hanging out with my friends too much because I couldn't answer a lot of questions (and might fail some).

  • Watched Munafik 2 and it's amazing how a movie can change your perception so easily. Made me sob, for a lot of reasons.

personal growth

  • With this new surrounding, my best friends so far away from me and with our different schedules, and me being unable to say anything to my mom so that she won't worry, I literally have no one. Meeting some new people here actually helped me to open my eyes completely that He's there for me. Forever and always. He is the one who's beside me whenever I'm in the "dark place". Personally, I never felt closer to Allah than how I feel right now, Alhamdulillah.

  • I'm a professional procrastinator. At least I thought I was, until I saw all my assignments unfinished because I convinced myself that I would be able to do everything last minute, just like in secondary school. Funny, Pypaa. Now that I see what that does to my mid-term exam, again, my eyes are opened about how much I need to do my works earlier and to actually get it done, because without doing the assignments, I can never understand the topic.

  • Money management. Now that I'm managing my own money (that was given by my parents), I learn to count my budgets. I'm currently using the app Money Manager, if you have any better suggestion, do comment below. And this also happens after my tragic only-RM50-left-in-my-bank-account incident. It was so scary guys, never thought my life could be scarier. I got nagged a little by my Ma because of that. I said to her I bought a lot of foods, when I actually spent money for more than just foods (read: where my money goes)

autumn playlist

To me, this is September vibes. No autumn in Malaysia, but autumn in my heart, and it sounds like these.


rewarding as in: you sucked all that food so now you can never eat a lot. again.
I'm on a diet, because my weight went up (obviously). Like seriously went up. Even I am surprised. And my Ma was the one who asked me to start dieting, my Ma never ask any of us to diet. For now, I just reduce my food intake, drink a lot of water and try not to sleep a lot. I can never do Atkins Diet or whatsoever, I'm a student, I need to learn! Being hungry will distract me! *cough* excuses. If anyone have any efficient diet tips, please share some! I'm in dire need for those!

I guess every student is just like me, and although we know it's not mentally healthy to bottle everything up, we need to live as if these problems we have do not exist because if we open up a little bit, we'll get hurt more. Or maybe it's just me. I'm happy with my life, I'm grateful. But I'm not happy in my life. Just every time I think I'm happy, there's a voice in my head, saying "no you're not happy and you never will" and magically, my smile disappears. I'm too tired, I guess. Not physically but mentally. But, like I said before, with Allah by my side, my parents, my family, and my friends, I might be able to pull this through. Allah doesn't burden a soul beyond it can bear.

These are the TV shows I'm currently watching but I'm very behind of. I started the show, but I haven't find the time to binge watch it. I'm currently on episode 4-6 for each of this shows except for The End of the F***ing World. It wasn't as good as how people say it is but it was intriguing.

I'm currently reading:
  • Lelaki Kiriman Tuhan - Umie Nadzimah
  • My Plain Jane - Cynthia Hand, Brodi Ashton, Jodi Meadows

So that's all for my life updates. I don't know when is the next time I'll have the mood to write, let's just hope that my writing block ends here. See you when I see you xx

Lots of love,


  1. I love how you describe things. Enjoying my read here. Welcome fo my favourite playlist girl. ^^

    1. aww thank you ❤ I'm glad you enjoy reading here xo

  2. I could never do Diet Atkins/Keto. Girl needs rice to live lol

    1. Tru, girl needs rice to live hahaha. I'm never gonna live with that diet lol

  3. Morning..done follow you blog today

  4. I like your Autumn playlist. Especially Youngblood and All The Kids Are Depressed. I love those songs :)

  5. omg. it feels like ages ago when i start going to college. IM OLD! it seems here that you got it under control. I start to gain weight after college to lol.


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Afifah, 19, Sabah, MY | When the dog bites, when the bee stings, when I'm feeling sad... I simply remember my favorite things and then I don't feel so bad.
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